Discerment- A journey down a new path

So when you decide to go on a journey and allow the Lord to lead it, you may end up in places you don't want to be. 

I am starting to realize that I have allowed myself to be manipulated by those that I thought cared for me the most.  That makes me so angry!  Don't get me wrong here..I allowed them to think it was okay.  Of course I did, otherwise they would have never done it.

My relationships have been changing the last several months and a lot of that is because the Lord has shown me a spiritual gift that I did not realize I had, it is called discernment.  I have always known that He has chosen to reveal certain things to me in situations that maybe others didn't get but I didn't realize that it was discernment.  I have been praying, more recently, that He would show me how to use this gift.  What is it that He wants me to do with the things that He shows me?

I know some feel as though they need to tell everyone what God is telling them but I have not felt the same way. At least not now.  I really feel like He is using this gift to show me broken relationships.  They all need to be healed.  But they don't all need to be pursued.  Does that make sense?  I don't need broken relationships to be a block between me and the Lord, but just because we work out our differences doesn't mean we have to be friends.

I am finally coming to that realization and honestly it is freeing.  I always felt I had to be friends with everyone and that everyone had to like me but that is not what the Lord wants for me at this time.  I really believe that He wants to pursue me and have a relationship with me and that is the most important thing.  That is what really matters. 

So what I do with this?  I keep praying. I keep asking the Lord to lead my path.  I learn to forgive those that have wronged me, even if I led them into thinking  it was okay.  I go to those I have wronged and I say "I am sorry".  I am not perfect but what I do know is that I am loved by Jesus just like you are.  And that has got to be worth something.