Sunday, June 20, 2010

Been thinking

I have been thinking about life and plans.  We all make plans in life.  Most of the plans directly effect us.  I am a planner.  I get that from my dad.  He likes to be in the know and always feels better when there is a plan.  So when I think I have it all figured out I realize that much to my surprise I don't.  Isn't that funny how we all think that we know the plan and then it never turns out the way we wanted it to!?

My plan was to stay at home with my kids and maybe one day when they were much older and all in school get a job.  Then my plan was to go back to school and get a degree in special education so that I could teach.  This plan was great because all three kids would be in school when I graduated.  Then my plans changed when I began homeschooling (for just one year).  Now I am already planning second grade at home.  I was praying the other day and asking God why He wanted me to get into all of this debt to teach if I was just going to be a mom at home who home schools. "I thought you wanted me to teach!" Then in a small voice I heard "Who said I wanted you to teach?" WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!  I was so sure!  I don't think I was wrong.  I have been thinking about it and have come to the conclusion that I will use my degree even if it is not teaching.  It will be with special needs children but it will be something better then I could have imagined.  There have already been glimpses of things that I pushed out of my mind because I didn't see how that would be apart of the plan.  And now they have crept back in and I am starting to see tidbits of a future.

We will just have to see what comes of this.  Just some of what I have been thinking.


McElroy Family Happenings said...

Good post. Good thoughts. Good for you!

Sterling said...

Like I said earlier today... Never say Never! LOL! I love ya, sweet friend!